my brain hurts after all this thinking
04/03/04 ~ 9:57 a.m.
saturday morning, at work again. had an early night last night, was in bed not long after 8pm, and still i had trouble getting out of bed this morning. i snoozed twice. sigh. had a nonfat white mocha on my way to work, and i feel a little more awake. though i'd prefer to not be here!
so, i get friday off for good friday, but i still have to work saturday. that's lame - most people will get a 3 day weekend! oh well. but i'm still happy to have it off, because i'm going to drive to livermore and spend the day with amy*. we can't see each other unless there's some sort of holiday, because i have sunday & monday off, and she has thursday, friday, and saturday off. (p.s. her schedule is way cooler than mine! not fair.) it was funny, she read on yesterday's entry that i was planning to call her, and called ME first!
i decided this morning while i was driving to work (i do a lot of thinking on my commute) that i want to go hiking with her! last time i tried to hike with amy, i was SO out of shape, and SO overweight, and i practically died on my way to the top of this HUGE mountain. it was embarrasing. but now, it's not like i'm in tip-top athletic shape, but i think i can handle it. i work out! i'll just throw on my knee brace (shhh! don't tell my doctor), and maybe we can conquer that same hill!
speaking of the knee, i've been brainstorming the best time to have the surgery. there are some factors involved, some of which make me a selfish bitch, but hey. it's my life. here's what i am taking into consideration:
1) i want to have been at this job for over 6 months. that's after july 1st. i will get a performance review then (written proof of my excellence, as kaire pointed out in my guestbook), and my "trainee" status will go away.
2) i don't want to give up my two planned vacations. one is the weekend of june 25th, i'm going to chicago to meet up with people on my 100 lbs weightloss board. the other is the week of september 20th, david and i are going to reno, and using his parent's timeshare. plus sarah & jon's wedding on the 24th. so if i have the surgery before either of these, my vacation time will get used up before i get disability pay (i think). or else i'll just feel guilty requesting time off.
3) i want to be here in the office when bonus checks are being considered and paid out. i don't want to get left out if i worked the whole bonus period just because i'm at home recovering. they pay in mid-june, mid-oct, and mid-feb, for the preceeding trimester. june's will be the first time in the history of my 2 year employment that i will be eligible for one, and dammit, i deserve it.
4) i want to lose about 15-20 more pounds before the surgery. it will make it easier for david to support my weight during the first few weeks, when i need a shower, walk to the car, etc. plus i will feel a little more comfortable about the non-exercise thing if i'm at a lower weight. now, i lose very slowly. often, 5 pounds a month is my max rate. so i need to wait at least 4 months from now. at least.
ok. so. i could go after our sept vacation. although it would be semi-crappy to take a week off right before being out on disability. AND i wouldn't be around for the mid-oct bonus. i could go in july, but i wouldn't have lost much weight, and also, i'm pretty sure i wouldn't go to the timeshare, which would suck because that's the only time off david will get all year (and who knows if he'll even get that whole week?)
so here's where i get crafty. i could time it such that i am still off work BUT near recovery when the timeshare week comes. so i could go anyways, maybe with one crutch or something. looking at the calendar, if i am going to be off work for 4-6 weeks, i'd want that week to be the 4th or 5th. i'd be super ready to get out of the house by that time anyways, what with all the boredom and loneliness. that would place my surgery on august 23rd or 30th (the doctor does them on mondays). that's 5 months from now, so i should be 15 or 20 pounds less. as long as my doctor could be okay with me missing a couple PT appointments (but walking around casinos and a wedding reception), i'd be good to go!
whew. good thing i have such an analytical mind. so what do you guys think? do you think it could work out?
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