my mom = dork
10/13/04 ~ 4:08 p.m.
exact quote from a message my mom just sent me:
"bring your digital camera [to the football game]. I will give you money for film or whatever a digital camera needs to work."
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
mother.
bored ramblings
10/13/04 ~ 3:56 p.m.
bored, bored, bored. i'm tired of addressing thanksgiving cards. they don't have to be mailed for over a month, anyways.
any type of heel, when worn too long, can aggravate my knee. i learned this today when i stupidly thought that my loafer-type shoes wouldn't hurt like my normal heels do. wrong.
tonight is dishes night. not excited. but it will be good to not have a super messy kitchen.
friday night, my youngest brother joey is playing in his homecoming football game. he's on the starting lineup for varsity! cool stuff. so david and i are driving out to see it.
i don't know what the hell i'm doing for the rest of the weekend. there's a party in s.f. on saturday night that i think i'm going to go to. then there's a book reading for jennifer weiner on sunday near s.f., but it's at 7 pm, which would have me back reallyreally late and also, i'd have to kill the whole day sunday in s.f. and jen may or may not come down on saturday, go to the party, stay over, and then go to the book reading with me. sigh. i don't know! if i had to guess, i think i'll end up missing the book reading. which is ok. i like her books a lot, but i don't need to meet jennifer weiner. i want to still go to the party, but i don't know if i'll go if sabrina doesn't go, cuz the people are more her friends than mine. decisions,decisions.
maybe everything will fall through and i'll just end up sitting on my ass all weekend. probably, the way things are looking right now.
i wish i had my future figured out. or had a lot of money so i didn't have to worry about the financial repurcussions of going back to college to do what i really would like to do with my life. i feel like i'll never be financially stable. is that true?
missing an old friend
10/13/04 ~ 11:18 a.m.
sometimes things remind you of old friends that have left your life for one reason or another. it's interesting that you end up reminiscing about the good times, and skimming over the bad times. this can happen with old boyfriends, sure, but i'm talking about friends.
i heard the song "sister golden hair" by america on the radio this morning. that song, and many others, remind me of jenny*. for those of you who haven't read my journal that long, jenny used to be one of my best friends. we were the kind of silly best friends that obsessed over tv shows together, took pictures of each other all the time, were each other's valentine's dates (even when she had a boyfriend), told each other "i love you".
i remember all those fun times; sometimes i look at all the pictures in my scrapbooks and reminisce. she was the one who started me scrapbooking in the first place! sometimes it's sad that we haven't spoken a word to each other in almost a year and a half. it's good in many ways - we both changed and our friendship wasn't healthy. we fought a lot. there was jealousy and competition. and then it just faded away. there was no blowout argument, just... gone.
sometimes i wonder what she's up to. i wonder if she wonders about me. i wonder if she reads this diary. she knows about it. but does she care? i don't think i'd want to open up the can of worms by contacting her, but i guess i want to to know i wish her well. i miss our fun times, and i treasure the memories: "let's celebrate, remember a year in the life of friends."
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one year ago: i just spent 2 hours talking on the phone to justin a.* TWO HOURS! i can't remember talking on the phone that long since i was like, 13.
two years ago: i visited sammi on friday night, gave her a b-day present, and went to concert.
three years ago: i really have no other choice. when one person owes another $15,000 and isn't paying it, the other person has to sue them for it to get it handled. never mind that person is my dad.
fouryears ago: Oct. 16th is a HUGE deadline at work and it's crazy. i have been cutting classes to go to work. hello, overtime!
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