and my life makes a sudden u-turn
07/18/02 ~ 1:50 p.m.
ok, so i haven't been fully honest in the last few weeks' entries. in fear david might find this here page (he IS a computer guy), i didn't write about my blossoming crush on him. but after last night, i think i'm cool.
i spent last night curled up in david's arms.
how did this happen, you ask? well, here we go:
i picked him up after work and brought him here with me. we went swimming, like usual, came in and watched friends and ate dinner with heather & travers. then we went to play pool but for some reason, the balls wouldn't come out (in my common room). so then we tried to come up with things to do. i came up with the drive-ins, but we didn't have enough time to get there, so instead we decided to watch a movie here, laying on my bed rather than in the living room. so i lay in back and he in front, and we're watching the movie playing by heart. so both of us would just slowly end up closer to each other, and eventually, i put my arm over him, cuz we were kinda spooning and he laid his arm over mine and his hand over mine. jasmine was curled up right in front of him.
so we kinda just layed like that for the whole movie, kinda rubbing hands slowly, not really. so when the movie was over, i got up and turned it off, changed into pj shorts, and climbed back in bed. he said he was getting sleepy so i asked whether he wanted to go home and he said no. i asked if he wanted to stay the night and he said yes. so i curled up against him and we chatted a little. while my mind was racing. he kept grinning and saying how happy he was.
we cuddled for over an hour, forehead to forehead, without kissing -- it was agonizing. so finally, we kissed. slow, without toungue at first, then with tougue later. no petting, really. he said something about "being a gentleman" =)
so we slept for a few hours. this morning, i had to get up at 7 for work. i took him home, and he kissed me goodbye. =) he must have told me 5 times how i have him wrapped around my finger. and that's that.
since we've been friends first it's cool -- that's the best way, but i'm a lot more scared. there's more at stake, you know?
and yes, for those of you wondering, i broke it off with ned. amazing, huh? well, i sent him an email. he won't really care, which is sad... but true.
david will give me the attention and affection i want. =)
and now, i need to take a nap. i'm totally tired from not enough sleep. i'd love to know what you guys think about this. hit me up with your opinions, yo!
~holly~
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