what does the future hold?
01/12/01 ~ 9:26 pm
i am so bad at updating this. i mean, seriously. i never ever wrote anything about my trip and now it's so far gone i'm sure no one even cares. here's a quick summation: bleh, astrid, ned, and i went to seattle and saw the space needle and pike's market. then we went to vancouver, canada and went to a pub because astrid and i are of legal drinking age in canada (wahoo!). then we saw atkinson's lighthouse in vancouver. then we drove home. it was all fun and i wish it had been longer.
there you go. now back to the present. ever since i downloaded AIM onto my work computer, i've been on it almost all day. this is good because i get to talk to ned a lot. the distance is making us both realize how much we enjoy each other's company. and not just for coital rendezvous. he actually said something like "i miss you. and sometimes.... i really miss you." plus the whole AIM thing is helping us be very open. i mean, we had pretty good communication going on, especially the last few months, but lately we've been discussing previous encounters and what was good and bad and preferences and all that sort of thing. it's very nice and i feel like even though he's far away, i'm getting closer to him.
which is scary all in itself. i mean, back a few months ago, i would have laughed at anyone who said ned and i might have a future. and ned and i even said we would stage a 'breakup' when he left. we thought it would be over. but it's not. and sometimes i catch myself wondering about what my future could hold and what part he'll have in it. like.... will i even keep in touch? will we be friends? will we even live anywhere near each other? for right now, i'd like to say i'm keeping my options open, which i kinda am. i don't think i'd turn someone down if they asked me to dinner or something. however, i am counting the days till he comes home for spring break (45) and we are making exciting plans for when i go to georgia in april. (he wants to get a hotel room for more privacy) so that has me tied up until then. big sigh.
enough about him. work is going very well right now, as long as i don't get caught and in trouble for being online all the time. my friends are all just the same. carly is upset over greg, as usual. seems he went on a date last night. she called me crying at work. i don't even know what to say to her anymore. so i just reassured her and tried to calm her down. oh, some BIG news-- ned told me that samantha is dating!! some guy she met on ICQ, which is not very smart (my opinion) but i am happy she's dating. she had to get over ned someday. maybe she'll leave us alone more now.
that's about all that's going on in my life. i am planning to go see Almost Famous at the UC Davis Campus Cinema. i've seen it before, but it was quality and plus i'll get to hang out with amy and the davis gang. plus maybe even jeffy and astrid and bleh. then this weekend ned's mom is going to help carly and i take ned's bed and old computer desk. i'm taking the desk, carly's taking the bed for a while (until my brother takes over my room when i move to davis- then he gets it). i need to scrapbook more this weekend. i finished about half of the trip. that's it. it takes FOREVER. i need to stop taking pictures. but.... pictures are the memories....
anyways, enough of all that. bye bye..
~holly~
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