a missed opportunity
04/13/03 ~ 5:21 p.m.
so that party i said i was going to? yeah, i didn't. i'm lame and i feel sad i missed it... almost. i'm kinda lazy too, and just didn't feel like getting up and dragging my lame self over there. david and i stayed home and played naughty card games, though, so we had our own kind of fun. just not ones captured by kevin's camera.
the sadness comes from wanting to hang out with all thsoe people, to be "part of the crowd" as it were. but i'm always on the outside, and it feels dumb to keep trying to shove in. i mean, there are tons i'm cool with. sue, arjun, dan y., joe... those guys are the bomb. and i told jeffy i was coming and i didn't (sorry!) and i always like seeing jackson.
i dunno. not going is probably just part of my mopey-self-finding thing. i always go places because people expect me to, and never stop to think about if i *want* to. i was too tired, i wanted to be in bed. so i didn't go. but it sucks that i kick myself in the ass afterwards.
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so picnic day. it fucking rained all day and now, the next day, it's sunny as hell. anyways.... david and i biked there and around campus and got soaked and freezing cold. for awhile it was cool, and we watched the weiner dog races and stuff, but eventually it just because chasing around bands we've seen a bunch of times while being uncomfortable in wet jeans. so we went home and took a hot shower. and had dinner. and didn't go to the aformentioned party. and that, my friends, was my saturday.
~holly~
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