halloween costumes
10/06/04 ~ 3:29 p.m.
i should start treating this more like a blog. i did make weblog-style. so like, when i'm bored, i'll post. heh.
i browsed the halloween store in this town at lunchtime. it didn't super inspire me, but i figured out some outfits i wouldn't mind: any disney heroine, sally from nightmare before christmas, and a pirate lady. though some year i want to do a couples thing with david, and he could easily be a pirate, so i should save that one for later.
we can't do a couples thing this year because he has his heart set on being mega man. well, i suppose i could be rush (his little red robot dog sidekick) but.... eh. i'll just step aside for this one. so i was searching the net for mega man pictrues for him to base his costume on, and i found this guy's halloween pictures. awesome. i think david should email this guy for tips on how to make his costume.
what are you all being for halloween? and are you going to any cool parties? and can i come???
a depressed time of year
10/06/04 ~ 1:20 p.m.
i'm kinda in a dumpy mood. i'm actually wondering if it's the time of the year. for two reasons. one, self magazine talked about beating the SAD feelings, as in Season A-something Depression. and two, in reading diary archives (mostly at my diaryland diary), i've been depressed the last few octobers.
but that could just be because last october, i was also dealing with job uncertainties. and the october before that, i was diagnosed with actual depression, brought on by changing jobs, schools, and place to live.
plus, it's not busy at work. there's two of us here and really only work for one person. (hence why i would be laid off in a few months). so when i'm not busy, i have time to think. overanalyze. worry about stuff.
it's hard to sit and WAIT to be laid off, and just hope a spot opens up randomly, so you can have it. but i'm not going to just start applying for outside places, because that would fuck with my benefits, i might not get paid enough... i won't start sending out applications unless it's mid-december and i have nowhere to go.
while i'm doing all this waiting, i get freaked out that other things in my life are going wrong: that i'm never going to finish losing weight, that david's going to suddenly fall out of love with me, that i'll never find a job i'm happy in. which is dumb because i'm counting calories and working out, david reassures me all the time of his love, and i actually put in my application to the school i can take online nutrition classes from.
i hope i come out of this funk soon. i'm planning fun things: swimming at the Y tonight, sex and the city with sabrina tomorrow night, a birthday party kareoke night in S.F. on friday night, meeting bob & sheri (radio personalities) on saturday... so hopefully i can distract myself with the fun.
plus this weekend david & i need to find some halloween constumes, and that's fun! people need to invite us to halloween parties! i have no idea what i want to be this year, i'm just stoked that i should be able to walk into a store and pick one, and be able to fit in the normal sizes. seriously. that's part of the reason i never had pre-made costumes in years past.
ok, i feel better just typing about that stuff. now if i didn't have 3 1/2 more hours to kill time at work and do nothing but think, i'd be fine.
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apparantly, i was slacking on entries most octobers...and when i did write, i was all moody.
one year ago: no entry
two years ago: no entry
three years ago: jenn and i are driving to san jose to sneak-attack my dad and serve him the court paperwork.
four years ago: no entry
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